Dancing With God...

I know I have been putting off some post for the girls devotion book I am wanting to work on, and I think its time I got back to it.This past summer I went to Footloose camp and at the weekly dance for camp there was 3 or 4 girls to every guy.So the better dancers were the ones who ended up getting asked to dance.I,however was not one of them.I stood in the middle of the dance floor swaying to the music by myself and just with my girls.I learned that night about 'Dancing With God' and letting Him set the music for me and He will lead my steps.

This week I found out one of my friends is getting married and two other are pregnant.I seem to be the one getting left behind in the dust in the relationship department.I know I talked an awful lot about guys last year and potentially dating soon,but it fell through cause it wasn't God's time yet. Now my heart is telling me to follow God but,my head is telling me there is something wrong with me.I was talking to one of my Sunday school teachers and she said,"You shouldn't be asking what's wrong with you,but what's right.It just means you are waiting on God..."

That has been rolling around in my head for the past few months.Then a few weeks ago I went to a lock-in for CYT.Michael was there but the most we said to each other was "hi..." That night Stephanie & I were put in charge of the high school girls devotion.Stephanie & I literally had 20 minutes to prepare before the lock-in started.Steph was not happy about doing highschool girls.She wanted middle school.I was okay with it,but her only being a sophomore I could understand her hesitance.We felt like the devo was a flop.As the girls exited the room we were in Steph whispered to me,"I need to talk to you.".So While everyone went back to the main hall for worship time we sat down on a couch to talk.We sat and talked for a good half-an-hour when the girls came back in.Unaware we were to do a second devo after worship time.So we shared some of the stuff that we talked about and encouraged the girls to talk more about stuff God had brought them through. It was a great 2nd devo. I felt so blessed to hear how our Mighty God has worked so much in such different peoples lives.That night I sat with three of my other friends and we talked about life,God,faith,guys, everything above from 2 am to 6 am untill it was time to clean up and leave. I left there feeling renewed and ready to take on the world.

It's amazing how in one week of school I feel all that being worn down. God has no place in college or so people would like you to think.That is one reason why I am so ready to leave MO West and go somewhere, that will help increase my faith.

God has been dealing with me over the whole career choice thing.I have been saying psychology and helping troubled girls.But...God is taking me down a different path.He is working on me about being a Social Worker,but looking at being one from the Christian perspective. Working in Christian houses for trouble girls. Alot of people are warning about the risk invovled and how hard of a job it is.I know it is and that is why I am so weary of deciding it but God is putting that desire in there for me and is showing me I have the strength through His to with-stand everything that is coming my way.Through everything that has happened in my life God was preparing my heart for something bigger and better.I understand that now. It makes me think of the song that my CYT class wrote this past fall.Don't think I ever shared that with you so here are the lyrics to it.I am working on having it copied to my computer so I can put it up on YouTube for everyone to hear.It truly is a beautiful song.I wish we could find a way to record it and put on the radio.I believe it would be a popular song.Course I am totally biased. It has been a long week and it's pushing midnight.So I leave you with the song "In Pieces."

In Pieces

She sits on the carpet, box in her hand, searching for pieces of blue

She survey’s the picture but tears blur her vision she doesn’t know what to do She feels like her puzzle, scattered and jumbled, she’d start if only she knew

(CHORUS)In pieces, our life comes in pieces, making the picture of who we are It completes us when we find our meaning, knowing our portrait was painted with love,It’s just in pieces

He stands at the doorway, heart in hand, longing to find a home

The places for pieces are heart-shaped but mismatched, he senses he won’t belong

He feels like a puzzle scattered and jumbled, he’d start if only he knew

He’d rest in those places where hearts were embraced; the time was long over due

(CHORUS)In pieces, our life comes in pieces, making the picture of who we areIt completes us when we find our meaning, knowing our portrait was painted with love,It all starts to make sense when it is done, It’s just in pieces

We’re putting our lives together, piece by piece, one after the other

Life is a puzzle, scattered and jumbled, It takes one piece to start

(CHORUS)In pieces, our life comes in pieces, making the picture of who we are It completes us when we find our meaning, knowing our portrait was painted with love,In pieces, our life comes in pieces, making the picture of who we areIt completes us when we find our meaning, knowing our portrait was painted with love,It all starts to make sense when it is done, we will look back and smile at who we’ve become...

It was in pieces

Always,

Megan Renee Higginbotham

Incredibly Ready For Christmas Break!

I'm still getting used to not having CYT.... Tonight is actually the first week of winter classes.Friday is auditions and I was gonna go and support my fellow CYTers but now I gotta work.*snaps*Drat! Oh well. I've been on a music binge today. I've been listening to my favorite songs all day long.It's one of the few things that can cheer me up when I'm sad.

I don't know if I'm sad as much as tired and drained. It's so hard not having my close friends around constantly like I used to. I do have my friends at college but I haven't talked to them much lately. However, on the 22nd I went to go see Twilight with my sis and my friend Jesse. He's a friend from homeschooling we recently got back in touch with.

Something super cool though..I AM going to Fan Night in 29 days.

Also the Haygoods are coming to Saint Joseph, January 24th and 25th! *by the way the commercial is on right now.HEHE!!!* For an early Christmas present mom and dad went ahead and bought me tickets for both nights.If you go to my Facebook they were here 2 years ago and I went photo crazy! I have so many pictures its insane! http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/album.php?aid=779&id=503219541&op=24 This is the link to Album 1. There is 3 albums of them in St.Joe. haha.

The photo above is from St.Joe Jan, 2007 when they were here.Mom took that picture when no one was ready.Dom was saying "Smile purdy for the camera,girl!Smile purdy!!" and he just hit me, with his very boney hips on purpose, and I was cracking up. I know it's not that good of a picture, but I laugh every time I see it. The one of Sydney, Pat, Rae and me is cute. I like that one.

Thanksgiving was wonderful. I always love spending the day with the Higginbotham Family. It's crazy, but the BEST! :) I love my family so much! I miss not having all my cousins around though.But its understandable with them in college and too far away to come for the weekend. I honestly and truly think,you have to be a certain level of weird to fit in with us. haha.WE go from talking about politics,to are educational toys really helpful,to top sales of Black Friday before anyone even hits the desert table and back around different topics by the end of the night. Not to mention all the mischief the grand kids get into. Now that we are older it's not as much as when we were little but things still happen and you never know what will. *sigh* Good day! =-)

New quote I found.I really like it!

"Love is like a fiddle.Even though the music stops occasionally the strings are still there." Haha!

Always,

Megan Renee

Aladdin..The end of a chapter...

My CYT career has an actor is over.But one thing about CYT,they always love having alumni come back and help wherever they can.As teachers,directors,sets,backstage,etc.I'll be back. :) But I will miss being on stage with everyone.

Along with me there was two other people graduating from Aladdin.Emily Martin, and Luke McCrae.

Emily and I occasionally talked but were never close.Not that we didn't talk, we just never hung out much.She was such a sweet girl.Wish we would of spent more time getting to know each other better.She's been doing CYT a long time but this last few years only doing a few a year.She was only in 4 of the 7 I did in these 2 years.The plays we were in together,she was always doing opposite things of me and we never got to work together.I know God has things in store for her.

Luke,I'm gonna really miss.He's a good friend and always had a hug and smile for me.He could always make me laugh.Like if I was just sitting by myself,resting while every one else was running around he would bounce up to me,sit down and just start jabbering away.He's really good at gymnastics, so when I say bounce I mean it literally.It was always pretty funny to watch.He's moving to Colorado in January.

I got to do the pre-show for the play with me fellow shop keepers.It was a blast! I loved doing my scene with Paul and Becca.

At the strike party awards,I got "Sitting Pretty".The award given to a student who helps with hair and make-up.Whether it's a student,not in the production,or a cast member taking time to help others.I got it.:) It was a cool to get an award for my last show.All three seniors(Emily,Luke,and me) got awards.That was pretty cool.That doesn't happen very often.

Afterwards I got so many hugs and people telling me how much they will miss me and how much I mean to them.It meant the world to me to hear all those things.I'm well loved and I know it.I don't think there is a better feeling on earth.A week after the show is over I'm still hearing,"I'm gonna cry..I MISS YOU MEGAN!" haha. CYT is the best thing to ever happen to me.It helped me grow so much as a person. I know from here things are only gonna get bigger & better.God has so much in store for me. CYT is only a piece of the big picture. I'm so blessed.:)

Always,

Megan Renee

Monday October 20th.

I really don't know what to title this. I have so many thoughts swirling in my head that my head is all jumbled. I have a lot of things hitting me right now.

For one,tonight was the lasst class ever of CYT and next monday is showcase. After that its my last performances ever and all too soon Aladdin will be ever.

I love my job, but with everything changing so rapidly it seems quite impossible that I'm "an adult" of nearly 19.

Things with Michael are interesting.We've been talking a lot lately even though he is no longer in CYT. I'm interested where they are going to go.

I've been having some interesting dreams that have made it impossible to sleep and I get cranky when I get tired. So that's not helping my abbility to think. Uggg..Last week I was making some dumb mistakes at work.Thank goodness Dawn is a patient woman.

I feel like I'm being pulled in all directions. I've having a hard time focusing on what I know I need to.I know I have something big coming that is requiring me to step up and give everything inside me I have and I'm not sure I'll be up to the task. I know God can handle anything but I'm scared I'm not up to the challenge.I know I'm letting my fear get the best of me. But there has been some stuff going on this week that has me questioning some stuff and reopening wounds I thought were gone. I don't want to lose it and fall to pieces again but maybe I need to just so God can intervien and pick up my Pieces and put them back together better than ever.

As you cna tell I have tons on my mind right now....UGH! I hate college life right now!

The 1st Sign of Fall...

October 1st!!! Ahhh!!! I seriously feel like I just thawed out from the ice storm last December, and here we are almost to the end of the year.*sigh*. I think I blinked too much this year or slept it away or something. It's been so busy I just can't keep up with the days.Ugh! Oh well.

Ok.Change of mind.I do have something to ramble about. On Saturday it was my great-grandma Ola's 90th birthday. It had been so long since she has seen me, and I have grown and changed so much, she didn't even recognize me.That hurt a little bit to think I've spent such small amounts of time with her in my life. I can't even imagine what it must to be like to have 90 years of knowledge.The change she has seen and everything she has been through.The great depression, both world wars, and so on. The literal change of the country as it hit the new millennium. What it would be like to sit with her for hours and hear story after story of growing up in the 20's, and 30's. She was born in 1918.All the music I love,swing, and oldies, to have been there and possibily gone to see those groups in their prime and the dance of the day was swing. I can't imagine what it was like. She's a very Godly lady and her most precious thing to her, is her faith. To be that old, and to have seen so many miracles from God...Wow..It blows my mind, then it makes me think that much more how awesome God is and it blows my mind even more.

Also on SAturday, I saw my Aunt Mary. Last time I saw her I was in Elemtentry.She saw me and came up to me,"My goodness! It's my lil baseball buddy!...My oh my..You're all grown up now!" See before my Uncle Jack died from cancer, every 4th of July every one gathered at my Aunt Mary's and Uncle Jack's ranch.They had a swimming pool, a volley ball net set up, horses, & a huge field of the guys to shoot off fireworks for everybodyand; of course TONS OF FOOD!...Me..I usually went for the cookies first.;-) haha!
Some times the guys would put on a lil rodeo show for us. I'll never forget one year they did some bull wrestling.I thought they were gonna get gorged by the horns for sure.But no one got hurt. Any way.Being the youngest of the family I was too small to particpate in anything. In volley ball I always got in the way and got trampled.Horses, I could ride if I had someone walking beside me, and the rest..Well...Kinda obvious. So my sister and I would take champaigne poppers and decorate the trees with them,go swimming, the drag out the baseball stuff. My Aunt Mary would pitch to us and we would play with her as long as she was up for. Then after Uncle Jack died, all that changed. Last time I was over there,Aunt Mary was so worn out from dealing with everything she didn't want to play baseball with me. Seeing her and everyone brought back memories I haven't thought of in a while. They were the best times ever. What I would give to have one more 4th of July at Aunt Mary's. It was over before I could really appreciate what I had in my family. Anywho. I told Aunt Mary we'd drive out and see her sometime and she said,"If you're busy go for it,girl!" she meant it all in love telling me to do what I wanted and needed to do,but its something I really want to do. I hate living here with no family near...So what am I going to do when I move away for college!?!?! Just a question I have been pondering this whole week.

Always,
Megan

A lil Update.

I'm pretty happy right now.My theatre class got canceled this morning.I love my theatre class,its super easy and fun,but I got the morning off.Yay! It was nice to have some time to relax for a bit.:) Monday's are usually my"busy" day so it was a super nice surprise.
Honestly I didn't want class this morning.This past friday one of the guys in my theatre class came in high on some kind of drug.Don't know what,but something.Everyone knew it,including Proffesor Staggs.So yeah. It slightly creeped me out. I've never seen someone high.He wasn't threatening in any way,but he looked so...pathetic. I felt sorry for him.In college,with a chance to make something of himself and he was throwing it away.

Ok.Happy note.Aladdin is going great!This is gonna be a great play.I can not wait for it.Yet I cna cause this is my last play.

This weekend was my friend Danielle's birthday.My sis and I had a fun time at the party.We had a lil bonfire going and the guys were having fun experimenting with fireworks.Yeah...Thats boys for ya.lol!They put a blue smokebomb in the fire and it turned the flames green.That was cool.

In 2 weeks Broadway Across America is coming to Kansas City and performing The Lion King.A group of CYTers are going.Its gonna be a BLAST! Next spring they'll be back through with Phantom Of The Opera.That's one I really want to see!!! Well that's my rambling for now.lol!
Meg

Believer. A song I wrote.

Hey guys.
Believer-The Story.
This is a song I wrote for one of my best friends.She is an amazing person with some great artist skills. :) She wanted to get her art out there and do something with her life.This guy she's with doesn't think much of her art or her dream. The song is pretty self explanatory. This past week she got her dream.She is receiving the opportunity to get her art work out there.So right now she is working away and awaiting the ruling on what happens next. If this pulls through she could totally turn everything around. I'm so proud she made it this far.This is all she needs. Her clear shot. So I wrote this song for her. Please let me know what you think.

BELIEVER by Meg Renee

She was a day dreamer,
plotter and a scheamer.
She had a weakness that wouldn't let her leave.
He held her on the edge of being able to believe.
He told her,"You'll never go."
"You won't do it,I know."
You're spinning your wheels girl
It'll break your heart to give it a whirl.
Stop believing,start realizin', no way
So come on and stay
You'll never go.
He told her no.

CHORUS
She is waiting to fly
Thinking life is passing her by
She's worth nothing at all.
Always feeling 2 inches tall.
Never knowing how loved she is.
She'll be surprised,not even knowing
Behind her disquise lies a Believer.


She struggled to be free
From the thoughts that controled her life.
From everyone who doubted and said,
"We're right,you'll see."
"Stop dreaming,save it for nights!"


CHORUS


She cried herself to sleep
Wondering how she could keep the faith
Not even sure if she'd survive tomorrow
Happiness had a way of turning into sorrow.
Not even sure if she believed anymore
She'd been beatin worse then ever before.


CHORUS


One day that dream came true
Tears and work finall paid through
Now everyone is believeing too.

She's no longer waiting to fly
She knows life isn't passing her by.
She worth's something after all
Now feeling 10 feet tall.
Knows how loved she is.
Everyone's surprised because behind her disguise was...

Someone read to fly
Passing the world by
Living today,believing in miracles
Ready to leave,
cause she's a
Believer!

If you're gonna steal, steal a heart. If you're gonna cheat, cheat death.If you're gonna fall,fall in love.If you're gonna dream, dream big! If you're gonna live,live today.If you're gonna forget,forget mistakes.

LOVE,LIVE,LAUGH!

Always!
~Meagn Renee