The thoughts,hopes,and dreams of an ordinary girl.

(Me&Syd. aka Chicka & Chickie.)



Me thinking..Dangerous!lol!

This weekend we made the 14 hour drive to PA to pick my sister up from school.It was long and boring.Sadly we did not make it back in time last night for me to make it to CYT.Oh well.So we stopped by at the Bible Study for my Sunday School Class and I was able to chat with Sydney,Sara,Kysa,and Sam for a few minuets before heading home.

Sydney and I have been talking about Saint Joseph a lot.We have been "bestest friends in the whole wide world" since we were 4.If I had to say longest known friend,it's Smiling Syd.:)We've been through so much together.We are alike in so many ways it's scary.(If you go to my myspace or facebook I have a album dedicated to the two of us.The whole no boyfriend thing is another way we are alike.lol) I get to see the side of her few people do.She comes across as hyper active,naive,bouncing,and as care free-happy go lucky as they come.She can be at times to a fault, but I know something few others do.Her dreams,deepest wishes and her hopes of being elsewhere. We agree, we have to get out of St.Joe.There was a shooting just blocks from Syd's house last week.There's nothing left for us here.We're ready to move on.Her parents aren't so sure about her leaving though.I hope she gets to leave.I know it'll kill her to stay here.There is a college here,and I have taking some pre-classes there,but I totally understand when Sydney says she wants to go somewhere better.MWSU is alright and has "updated" to University status but there is still so much more offerred at better colleges.I have my sights set on C of O.My cousin went there and he swears by that school.I hope I get in.

Big CYT News..... After Mulan, we have summer break. Then there is Footloose Camp.Then the Fall Show, Aladdin begins in August. Footloose will be my last CYT camp, and Aladdin will be my last CYT show.I am sad to see my time up,but at the same time I'm ready for it.The hour drive to classes, and rehearsals every week are wearing on me and my family.Also I knew when I joined 2 years ago I'd have just that.A lil over 2 years.So it's been on my mind alot lately.I swear I won't cry at my very last audition.I already know wha song I am doing and everything down to my outfit already planned.I want my last audition to be perfect!So when is all said and done I'll have been in 7 shows and 2 week-long camps.

I have had so much buzzing through my head it's not even funny.I had the wildest dream the other day.I went to C of O and became incredibly good in their drama program and joined the show at the new Sight & Sound Theatre that perform Biblical Musicals.I thought it was wild.My mom said,"Why not?Why can't you?" I really don't have intentions of "going big" with my drama but rather using it ministry along with counceling and my writings.My real dream is to become a better composer and write great musicals with a Christian theme for programs like CYT.I've already started on a story.The trick is composing the music.I'll have to record myself playing my original piece and post for you guys to hear.Hmmm...Idea! I'm going to do that later this week!:)Hehe!

"Because I'm ready to fly and never looking down.I crash and burn so be it.I'm ready for the challenge.I'm not worried about how far the ground is.Rather how high the stars are."-Michelle from Quotes.(The story I'm working on.)

Always,
Megan Renee

"Life Is Like A Paino...."

"......What You Get Out Of It Depends How You Play It."

"He Who Sings Prays Twice."

These are some of the sayings my piano teacher has hanging on her wall right above the piano. Every week I see these. Last night I had a wonderful piano lesson and felt so proud of myself for accomplishing different things I have been working on. Also I heard someone( I don't remember who say,"When I stand before the Lord in Heaven I want to hold out empty hands and say,'I have no talent left.I used it all for You.' " This is a good life philosophy. How many of us truly want to be able to say that and hear, "Well done good and faithful servant." Now that I am learning and advancing more quickly in piano I hope to be able to continue writing songs. (That is another thing I finished.My very first original song.Complete with lyrics and music.:-) ) So yeah. I have tons of poems I would love to put music to and perform them in church! That would be so neat.

Last time I performed in church was for my sisters graduation song and I did great for the rehearsal, even Pastor was impressed. Came time to play and totally screwed it. I can't watch the grad. tape with out groaning and wanting to kick myself.I just need to relax when playing for people. I can wail away on the piano at Sherry's house,(my Sunday school teacher who can no longer play cause of arthritis but she loves listening to me) and at home when I'm alone or just for my sis. Anyone else and it's ....Uhhhh...Not my best.*rollseyes* I guess its cause at Sherry's I usually play when everyone is up and talking and having fun.So all attention is 100% on me, and if they are listening it is just cause they thoroughly enjoy it. It's easy to play and show off for them. When Rae was home and I started making up stuff as I played at Sherri's, she called it, "Mad-genius-time. " haha! I just wish I could put that ease into recitals and playing for a crowd. Also when I was the Crone I had butterflies in my stomach when doing it,but it was a good thing. It was out of sheer enjoyment and excitement for performing. Although now that I've done that it'll help me with performing at piano recitals and such.

I guess this saying is sticking with me cause Rae will most likely stay in PA for the summer.That means missing my recital in April, missing Mulan,(my play in May) ,going to go see Wicked the Musical when it comes to KC in May, my Footloose performance for acting camp in August, and summer vacations to Branson. She will not miss my high school graduation.I know she refuses to. But that will be the only time I see her this summer. As much as I am thinking,"Grrrrr......" I know it is being selfish. She said if God wants her to stay in PA for the summer she will be invited to and it is looking promising that she will. That is a huge honor and accomplishment for her cause when she was home in Dec. she was thinking it was a no cause she was not being every thing they needed for a camp councilor for the summer horse camps up there. Well since she came back from break they have seen a huge difference in her, so I am proud of her! I really am! I was talking to my friend Sara last night on the phone about it and she said,"That is great for her!...but what about you...I know how hard it was on you when she first left.You were..Ummm....Shall we say...Ummm...Upset to say the least?" Sara stayed with me while mom and dad took Rae to PA since I stayed home due to school and Snow White. There was definitely days she found me in my room crying. So I am praying for myself and for Rae Jay as she makes the decision to stay. I know how badly she wants to be home but I know she would be blessed so much if she stayed and helped for the summer. Love you all and thanks for reading!

Always,
Meg Renee'

*pic above, me and my sis at a homeschool formal*