Wedding pics

There are more photos but I thought I'd just upload a few... :) ENJOY!

The Ending of Summer

Ok...So my dear blogger friends I'm sure you're afraid I abandoned you. Well for a short time I did. I am very tired and not feeling well today so I will be brief. All month I have been busy working for a lady who is taking care of her mother. However she gets tired so easily she has a hard time taking care of her. So I come in 3-4 times a week and help with things. I really do enjoy the job. Today was my day off and I woke up feeling sick to my stomach around 6 am so bad that I had to get up and go sit on the couch to keep from throwing up. Lovely, and just what you wanted to read I am sure.

... as soon as my computer wishes to comply I will post pics of the wedding... that happened a month ago... YEEESSSHHHH! Fail, I know right?

Fun Times

Got that idea from my boyfriend. :) Ok..... I have not updated this thing since August and I thought it was high time to do something again with this site. I like blogger because I can ramble about things and it not coming back to bite me. Sounds bad, but true. When I was ranting about guys and other stuff, the people who know and read this blog don't know who I am talking about beyond the words on the screen. Where as on Facebook, everyone and anyone is likely to read it. Its kinda like a online journal. (Which I need to write in y regular journal as well.)

Ok blogger world!.... My life has pretty much been turned upside down. In September when I was home for a three day weekend, my friend David stopped by to check on me and hang out. (I've written about him before. It was back in 2008.) Anywho. I sensed something was up. He was not acting like his normal self. Well after spending my evening with him and my family I walked out with him to his truck. A little phrase that has stuck in me head since that weekend. "Maybe some crazy day you and me...." One month later in October we were dating. It will be 6 months since then on March 4th. I seriously was not expecting a guy in my life for quite a while, let alone him... To be honest I never would of seen this coming. But my other friends did... Cortney said, "You're not gonna end this year single. Somehow I just know you're gonna get a boyfriend. Just a gut feeling I have." Out or list of guys who it might be... David was not one of them. It was just the fact he was such a good friend I never would of seen him ever having feelings for me. My other friend Sara even saw it coming a while back and I told her she was off her rocker for even thinking there could be anything between us. She said, " I don't know. Just the way you two act around each other and the way he looks at you... I don't know. I just... yeah." I laughed at her ridiculous thoughts.... Not so much huh? He is still back home and I am here in Springfield. He comes and visits me as much as he can. :) Its great. He is the best boyfriend I could ever ask for. He spoils me. He is such a gentleman. He insist on paying for things, holds open the door for me, and is pretty much all around wonderful. For Valentines Day he bought me a dozen roses. :) Might be the typical V-Day cliche' but I liked it. lol! I like roses. We used to have a rose bush in the backyard for the longest time. One year in a bad freeze it ruined it. :'( I miss it. I liked picking fresh roses for me room. I have several quotes about roses in my quote book I will have to get out,. Ok... Side tracking. Anyway! I think this is a good stopping point. I will write a longer one. I promise!

Always and Forever,
Megan Renee

Just need to think....

So it's late. 1:25 am in the morning to be exact. I went and ate dinner with mom at the hospital 11:30 for her night shift. I usually stay up pretty late after eating with her cause I just cant eat then go to bed. Nope. So I thought I'd write on here for a bit then try to go get ready for bed and get some much needed sleep.

Today (now yesterday) I had lunch with a good friend of mine from CYT. Shawnie and I met for Mexican then went out for ice cream. It was so good to catch up. Shes one of those friends I tell everything to. She always has some kind of Bible verse or encouraging thing to tell me when I am talking to her about whats bothering me. Well anyway we talked about everything. We haven't seen each other since May so we were catching up on how each other's vacations were, latest news, etc. Well, its kinda funny. We were talking about guys and she asked me about any in my life after she filled me in on her most recent crush. I told her I was over the guy I had a crush on for the longest time. Just happy being single right now, and just waiting for God. She looked at me and said, "You know what? I can't really see you two together anyway..." She paused and I asked her what she meant. She told me she didn't think we made a good match. She just couldn't see us together and was happy that I was moving on. The rest of our conversation, some of the stuff we talked about really made me stop and think about some stuff. Like I said. A good day. The last bit of our day we spent laughing at CYT memories and all the crazy stuff that happened backstage. :-) I'll really miss all my friends when I leave...... But its God will I really believe. Its kinda weird. When I am really stressed I have weird dreams/ night mares. So that is one reason why I am stalling. Been having all kinda of freaky dreams. When I was really struggling with some emotional stuff back in 2006 that is what finally broke me. When I finally would go to sleep all I could dream about was everything bothering me, so I always woke up upset with very little sleep. I just feel like I have more on my mind than I can handle (though I know its not true.) Seeing some of my CYT friends at a friends house made me realize everyone I will miss, and everything I will missing out on. The day I leave is now 10 days away. A week and a half pretty much. Its still sinking in. It all feels so surreal. Also with having a friend living with us temporally is kinda putting my parents on edge a little bit. So I'm getting that from them as well. This is he biggest change in my life to date. Its one thing when friends move away. But its me moving.... yeah. Lots to think about. Its a quarter till 2. I guess I should try to get some sleep.

Always,
Megan Renee

Nothing Makes Sense Anymore.

Ok...Last year I stayed home for my first year of college. Taking this step of faith is making my stomach churn. My mom said, "Honey, this is God's Will or it wouldn't of happened as fast as it did.For some reason you are meant to be there. You can relax about that. You're doing whats right." I have friends waiting for me in the Branson area and I have a friend whose brother lives in Springfield so his mom and him visit the area all the time. Also I know when friends come to Branson they can come to me or I can go to them. :) hehe!

I've been thinking about who I am and who I'm meant to be. I am very scared of what is going on. My world is turning upside down. I know that God is doing something but I can't quite put a finger on it. I know something is about to happen...I know what I'm feeling, but... I was trying to figure out what is going on and I was talking to my friends about it and they didn't understand what I was trying to explain. They just looked at me with a blank expression. I don't know. My head is spinning from everything. I am moving forward, yet but I feel like I'm being left behind. Its a weird feeling. Less then three weeks and I leave. I am trying to make sense of everything and nothing seems to make sense. Maybe in a few years it will. haha. I am looking back trying to decide whats coming next. It seems like when I am trying to decide what to do next I look back and make my decisions from previous lessons.This is a brand new game and unfamiliar territory so there is nothing to take this from. So I'm....Anxious....Or whatever you want to call it. Its like I'm all feelings and can't describe how I feel. Anyone understand the confussion?

Always,
Megan

When You Look Back....

Right now I am listening to my new favorite song. "One Life To Love"- 33 Mile...I heard it on the radio when I was driving home and I had a lot on my mind. I am moving to Springfield. I am really moving... It is just now starting to sink in. I have my "Inspirational" play list going. It has all of my feel good music on it. A little bit of everything. It was the one I had on blogger but it wasn't working properly so I took it off.

http://www.playlist.com/playlist/2209846539

My song writing class from CYT used the message about Life Being In

Pieces & It's Only When You Look Back Do You See the Big Picture & It Was All Worth The Pain & Joy. That is where I am at. I fought different things in my life for so long and now I landed right where I thought I didn't want to be. Let me rewind and explain. I thought I wanted to be certain places and I fought against Baptist Bible College cause I didn't think that was what I wanted. Well I told God if plan A, plan B, and Plan C didn't work out...Then I would try Baptist Bible College. Guess what? None of them worked. Guess what did? BBC...Kinda feel like the dunder head of the century right now. However as time draws nearer I am more and more excited for it to get here. Yet I do admit that I am scared. I am moving 4 hours from home. When my sister left for PA I was heartbroken.My entire support system was gone. Well that was what happened when she left...But what about when I leave?What then?I do worry about my sister. However God has the best timing I know. See God has turned my 2009 year upside down. I now have my friend Sydney aka Bunny living with us due to different circumstances. Sydney was a friend of my friend Sara, and we became friends. She officially became a "St.Joe Hat" last year. She is a blast to have around. Her and Rachel get along really well too. Which I love knowing when I leave Rachel and Sydney will have each other to lean on. Sydney has pretty much been adopted into our family. After she is able to get out on our own, I know she will always have a special place in our hearts. Sydney and I were talking yesterday. If Rachel's boyfriend does anything to hurt her Sydney and I will be the mowers and he will be the awaiting grass. ha ha( got that one from Syd. I cracked up when she told me that.) I have my best friend from Mississippi visiting about a week and half and I can not wait for her and Syd to meet. I have not had a good long visit with CMT for a few years. We are long over due. So every night when I go to sleep and stare at the glow-in-the-dark stars on my ceiling I let my brain fill with all this stuff before finally drifting off.

"what will my room mate be like.","what will it be like living away from home.","will I like my classes","what will happen back home that I can't be there for and miss out on.","what if I'm needed back home and I can't get home."...You get the point. God has gotten me pretty far this year and I am quite amazed at His Hand at work.

When I told Sara, "This will be the year of change." I had no idea I would be so right. So much has happened in such a short time and so much has yet to happen.Hmm....I don't know. I am excited, nervous, anxious, worried,... and so on. Well my lil rant is done. Love ya.

Always, Megan

Life Is Like Photography.*edited*

"You devolope from the negitives." I love that quote. I got it from my friend Becca who is really in to photography. Well here is my Vacation in photographs then i have Big News to share! Though you all saw it on twitter! :) hehe!





Ok...I take that back...the uploading thing on blogger is not wanting to work..... I will try to upload some later.

I GOT ACEPTED TO BBC IN SPRINGFIELD!!!! YAY!!! Well I really need to get off. I have a lot to do today.