Wow.....Long time!!!!!!!

Okay....I left off with Mulan..Almost a month ago.Yeeaaaaahhhh.
The weekend after(the 17th) was the Home school Spring Formal. Didn't I look pretty?:) It was a wonderful night full of laughter and fun. Michael got me a white rose corsage. See.=)He was being a complete gentleman.He was being so sweet and charming.I admit.I was slightly shocked,but also I never have spent much time with outside of CYT.So it was interesting,entertaining, and enlightening.The things you learn about people at a large table with 9 people or so.:) Still.A Very good time. Afterwards we went mini-golfing.That was great.I didn't win,but didn't care. There was 9n of us that went golfing and we were in 3 groups of 3.Samantha,Michael and I were in one group and Michael was offering to hold our purses for us while we were up.The funny thing is my purse matched his tie and Sam's matched his coat and he was holding both of them at one.We got a giggle out of it.Michael just shrugged and said,"Whatever."He didn't care.Oh and for those of you wondering the whole matching tie was his idea and he picked it out.He was excited he got it right on.lol! A great night.:-)


The 18th,the next night after the formal, was Wicked,being performed by the traveling group,Broadway Across America.Can we say,"AMAZING!" It was so good! I got to sit with Karis and we were in the Wicked singing class for CYT together and it was so hard not to sing along but didn't for fear of being booed and kick out of the theatre. HA!It was incredible.I want to see it again!lol!

The following Monday,the 19 was the CYT Class Spring Showcase.NO photos,but I did get video!Check it out! I think we did good.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wQFRt9op9_Y
First Video...I had the opening line but the camera shut off for some reason and dad missed it.:(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IQGufQZvR6I
Second Video. They were suppose to be one video but again my camera was being stupid and mysteriously shut off. Enjoy!

The 24th my piano recital. The third song "My Psalm" is my original.My performance this day was not the best,but whatever.You live and learn and you move on.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=938dIlKh-Vc

The 31st I had a CYT wedding to go to.It was fun.I'm so happy for them! Nathan and Maggie are amazing people!

June 1st was my high school graduation!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! It went really well! I got a huge shock. Michael came! I did not think he was going to make from what his parents had said the day before at the wedding. My eyes got really big when I saw him and his parents getting out of the vehicle and of course Sara gave me away by laughing so loud everyone turned to look to see what was so funny.Oh well. I had a handful of friends from CYT come.That meant so much to me. Some of my friends started crying during my slide show. Which I am working on putting up some time this week.I couldn't see any one's reaction during the slide show (except the friends were sitting up front cause they were doing a skit with me.) but when I got up to do my speech I could see who had been. ha ha.
Jeremy got up there to talk and mentioned about how long he had known me and my family and what impact he has seen us have on people then said,"Well as 'The Crone' I know she made an impact on my two daughters when they saw her with that nose and everything."At that all the CYTers cracked up laughing and cheering.(Except Michael... He hated me as the Crone. I was too scary.I guess I'm not suppose to be scary.ahwell.)Sara said his reaction to that was pretty funny.Kinda wish I could of seen him from where I was sitting.

Great news! I AM GOING TO FOOTLOOSE CAMP! I sent my registration but I was on the waiting list.It had filled up so fast.My heart sank at hearing this.I had several friends on the waiting list last year and none of them made it to camp."Great."I thought."Just great.Can't go see my brother and now this.This is going to be a bad summer.It can't be.This is my last summer of fun before 'Cracking down on college'.Nooooooo! Oh well..."I told my Sunday school class to pray for me cause I really wanted to go and it was looking slim.Rhonda said,"If you're meant to be there you will be.God will find a way." Well this morning I got a phone call.I was the first person on the list and someone canceled.Soooooooo..It is official! I am going!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm cutting it loose...FOOTLOOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gotta do this..................................
YYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


"I'm like a shooting star,I've come so far.I can't go back to where I used to be."

Always,
Megan Renee

Mulan! The Review...

Hey!Long time no chat you guys! This week was up,down,to the side,to the other side and every where else.It was a emotional roller coaster.Drama was to the max.Not the acting but the cat fights,rumors, and gossip.I tried to stay out of it and did an alright job doing so but it wasn't a full proof plan.Plus I had a lot of drama of my own.Luke was paying a lot of attention to me and Michael(who is going with as my date to the formal in a week.) was blowing me off and ignoring me for this other girl,or so it seemed,etc.It wasn't pretty. then I get the shock of my life when I Find out that I.....Guess I better rewind and freeze from the top of the week before I pile everything on you guys at once.I had a week to soak all this up and I'm still absorbing most of it.lol.

Sunday-Move in day.We move all the props and sets to to the theatre from the studio.I stepped on the stage and I had a show flash back."Iowa Stubborn" from Music Man."Verb" from School House Rock."The Mutiny" from Treasure Island."The Final Battle" from Snow White and the "Biggest Blame Fool" from the recent Seussical:The Musical. I was over whelmed with joy and memories. It hit me that my sister has not been at Youth Front for a year.After Treasure Island was when she left for Pennsylvania.It was a typical rehearsal and move in.*I'll skip alot of little stuff and to the highlights.*

Also I did not have any time to write this week and have already forgotten alot due to my days slurring together and everything feeling like one big blur.

Monday-Wednesday-rehearsal.Michael was fine at first but every time I tried to talk to him about plans for the formal, coming up he would answer,"Sure.Yeah.We'll talk more later."That was all he said, or it would be he would be constantly hanging out with this other girl.There was one day I saw them just in time to see him pick her up,spinning her around,cuddle up,and,hold hands.That upset me.If he's spoken for I'm not meddling and don't want to look like the "boyfriend stealer." I called Sara crying.I don't know why it hurt so bad to see them together that way but it did.When she was talking about having fun in the avalanche scene and "being dead" her told her,"But I don't want you to die.I don't want you to go any where.Ever!" Then I found out later that night when she wasn't feeling well he carried her out all the way to her car. I felt so stupid and was clueless if I even wanted to remind Michael that he had even yet to get his ticket from me.Sara brought her spike ring to slap some sense into him if need be.I barely talked to him for the rest of the week. Like I said.Had no idea why but when I saw him with her.It hurt.A Lot!

Thursday-Was opening show and we had a kinda small crowd.Luke however always made a point okay hey to me and give me a hug.I talked to him often during the week and it was a nice distraction. There wasn't really any problems with the first day of shows,but things just needed to be sharper overall.The fight scenes,were excellent and were the definitely
highlights of the show.Phillip the music director was given a shield to protect himself from the flying swords.The funny thing...It worked perfectly, and often.

Friday-was a the big drama day.It started out with it was the first play my Pastor has ever seen and I was very nervous whether he would enjoy it or not,cause him and his wife are very conservative.Some emotions was rising and there was people getting mad at fellow cast members. There was bout 2-3 fights going on. One of them carried over to Saturday and came to the point where other cast members were gossiping about it,taking sides and getting involved even though they has nothing to do with it. Also,Friday night Sara's guy showed up..With his ex-girlfriend! It upset Sara really bad.She pulled me out of the theatre to the parking lot to talk.

Saturday-It was last day and as I said some fights carried over and had gotten out of control. The girls who started it apologized to the cast and settled it,but some of the cast members were still mad about it.Saturday night was the night they taped for the DVD and was the best performance and crowd.


Saturday evening after the play we had our strike party and award ceremony.My friend Shawnie got the watch dog.I knew she would.The watch dog is just that.
Someone who watched out for fellow cast members,directors, and a real helper.Camille,the girl who played Mulan,got screwball,cause she had some great saves and was always thinking on her feet when things in the play went wrong.There is also Tech,backstage,leap frog and few others.Well they got to the Rose Award.The award for most Christ-like girl in the cast and is voted on by the cast.Jen-the choreographer said,"The rose is someone with a Christ like attitude,a smile,a hi,a pat on the back, and this award goes to Megan Higginbotham." It didn't even dawn on me that she said my name till she got to the "tham" of my last name,even though everyone was already out of the seats and cheering.I sat there like a deer in head lights.Not sure what to do.Just shocked out of my mind.It took till SAra finally pushed me out of my seat.I was stumbling all over my feet so I just kicked my flip-flops off.The moment I was out f my chair I was mobbed by everyone with congrats and hugs.It felt like a big blur.I walked up to accept the award from Jen and made my way down the line of directors and all the other award winners giving everyone a hug.My head director,Chris,took the microphone and said some words about me but all I could do was stand there and stare at the award in my hands.I couldn't concentrate on anything else but the sound of my heart racing in disbelief.He then went into the Brave heart which in the most Christ like guy.It was given to Preston Babbit.A awesome guy who is so sweet and will do anything for the under dog.See Preston is a big guy who does weight lifting and when he heard what Logan did to Sara he wanted to pound Logan's face in.Just cause he wasn't treating a girl right. He totally deserved it. The show ended with us singing a praise song then it is tradition that the Rose and Braveheart award close the evening with a prayer. It was the greatest. Alot more to write but I am tired and that's it for now.I'll upload pictures as soon as possible!

"A flower that blooms in adversity is the rarest and most beautiful of all."-Chinese Emerpor from Mulan

Always,Megan Renee

oh boy......***EDITED****

Tonight-4 hour rehearsal...Friday-4 hour rehearsal.Saturday-7 hour rehearsal. Sunday, Monday,Tuesday, and Wednesday 4 hour rehearsal. We open Thursday,May 8th. 2 shows Thursday,Friday, and Saturday. Hurricane Mulan in sighting. ha. I love show week but it gets so busy and so hectic.Yow!

Yesterday I royally screwed up.I had a make lesson and I blew.I forgot to go.I have lessons on Thursday,not Monday.Didn't write it down and forgot.*bang head against wall.*Janene was not happy.Somebody's in hot water.Guess who!I was running all over town,doing errands,and trying to get stuff together for formal,graduation,and calling people about tickets to Mulan,and...there goes time and my memory.heh heh.Woops. I have one month till recital.I will make it up.:)

*EDIT*May 1st....
I'm sitting here deciding what to do about this guy named Chuck.He's had a crush on me for a year.Normally,I'd be flattered.But you know what.I'm not.I have no care in the world to ever date him.I don't want him liking me...See he got saved and joined my church over a year ago.At the time he was engaged to my friend Camarae.She dumped him and so now he wants me.It gets better.He was engaged to Janna.Got to know Sara,though Janna.So he dated Sara after Janna dumped him.He dumped Sara for our friend Camarae,cause she was cuter. She dumped him for another guy.So guess who's the next friend in line? Me!He's getting on my nerves and I'm trying to figure out how to deal with him.He didn't know how to serve in church so he became a greeter.Alrigh whatever.He started out at the North enterance.But I come in the East. Now all of the sudden he's at the E.I go to junior church to help our during the main severice.Chuck doesn't hate kids,but he doesn't care for them.He's not a kid kind of guy.Now he's down stairs working in the room I am.*sigh*Too bad I don't have a boyfriend to scare him off.lol! Last night when Rae and I were helping him move,I was talking to my friend David about it and he said he'd help.:)David's a good friend and "adopted big brother." While my sister was gone for PA David came over a lot just check in on me. So I now I need to figure out what to do.Sara has told Chuck in the past that I don't like him like that and I like someone else.It helped for a bit but not now. He's even heard me talking about Michael and going to the formal with him.Maybe the night of the formal I'll have Michael call and tell Chuck himself we're dating...Idk.We'll see what happens.

Well I have a bunch to do today.Later!

The thoughts,hopes,and dreams of an ordinary girl.

(Me&Syd. aka Chicka & Chickie.)



Me thinking..Dangerous!lol!

This weekend we made the 14 hour drive to PA to pick my sister up from school.It was long and boring.Sadly we did not make it back in time last night for me to make it to CYT.Oh well.So we stopped by at the Bible Study for my Sunday School Class and I was able to chat with Sydney,Sara,Kysa,and Sam for a few minuets before heading home.

Sydney and I have been talking about Saint Joseph a lot.We have been "bestest friends in the whole wide world" since we were 4.If I had to say longest known friend,it's Smiling Syd.:)We've been through so much together.We are alike in so many ways it's scary.(If you go to my myspace or facebook I have a album dedicated to the two of us.The whole no boyfriend thing is another way we are alike.lol) I get to see the side of her few people do.She comes across as hyper active,naive,bouncing,and as care free-happy go lucky as they come.She can be at times to a fault, but I know something few others do.Her dreams,deepest wishes and her hopes of being elsewhere. We agree, we have to get out of St.Joe.There was a shooting just blocks from Syd's house last week.There's nothing left for us here.We're ready to move on.Her parents aren't so sure about her leaving though.I hope she gets to leave.I know it'll kill her to stay here.There is a college here,and I have taking some pre-classes there,but I totally understand when Sydney says she wants to go somewhere better.MWSU is alright and has "updated" to University status but there is still so much more offerred at better colleges.I have my sights set on C of O.My cousin went there and he swears by that school.I hope I get in.

Big CYT News..... After Mulan, we have summer break. Then there is Footloose Camp.Then the Fall Show, Aladdin begins in August. Footloose will be my last CYT camp, and Aladdin will be my last CYT show.I am sad to see my time up,but at the same time I'm ready for it.The hour drive to classes, and rehearsals every week are wearing on me and my family.Also I knew when I joined 2 years ago I'd have just that.A lil over 2 years.So it's been on my mind alot lately.I swear I won't cry at my very last audition.I already know wha song I am doing and everything down to my outfit already planned.I want my last audition to be perfect!So when is all said and done I'll have been in 7 shows and 2 week-long camps.

I have had so much buzzing through my head it's not even funny.I had the wildest dream the other day.I went to C of O and became incredibly good in their drama program and joined the show at the new Sight & Sound Theatre that perform Biblical Musicals.I thought it was wild.My mom said,"Why not?Why can't you?" I really don't have intentions of "going big" with my drama but rather using it ministry along with counceling and my writings.My real dream is to become a better composer and write great musicals with a Christian theme for programs like CYT.I've already started on a story.The trick is composing the music.I'll have to record myself playing my original piece and post for you guys to hear.Hmmm...Idea! I'm going to do that later this week!:)Hehe!

"Because I'm ready to fly and never looking down.I crash and burn so be it.I'm ready for the challenge.I'm not worried about how far the ground is.Rather how high the stars are."-Michelle from Quotes.(The story I'm working on.)

Always,
Megan Renee

A little update....

Hey.This is going to be a short post but that is okay.

Mulan has been going alright I guess.I am not doing as much as I thought I would,so that is a lil disappointing,but whatever.Ya deal with it.

School...Groan.Don't get me started.lol!

My leather working classes are over for now.They were only a month long.But I learned a lot in the classes I had.

Boys.....Nothing new to tell.Nothing has happened lately.

The Formal.Theame....Phantom of the Opera and it's coming together beautifully!It's coming up fast.May 17th!One of my favorite people,my former youth pastor,Jeremy is speaking, and the improv team from CYT is performing.It's going to be the best!

Graduation....Going alright.June 1st!Woohooo!My other favorite former youth pastor,Josh(Jeremy's older brother.Josh moved to Pennsylvania and Jeremy took over for a bit till they found someone else to do it.) is moving back to Missouri and will be speaking at my ceremony!Yay! He has a awesome book.Check it out! "God's Nobody." by Josh Coverette.

The trip to my brother's ship.Ummmm...It's looking not the best right now.I want to go so bad but it's not looking like it's going to happen.I am so bummed out.But God is in control.He knows what he is doing.

I have been sick lately.No fun.Ick!Yesterday I completely lost my voice.Right now few things are keeping me sane.Tina said,"If I were that busy I'd go insane." Ha.I feel like I am about to.My sister comes home from school for the summer in less than a week!I can not wait to have her around again.

Sorry I have not updated much.Our computer is dead,and I have not had time to get to the library.Later!

"H.O.P.E.
Holding On Promises to Encourage you."

Always,
Megan Renee

Branson!

This weekend was amazing!It was a "perfectly planned weekend."It turned out quite different than we expected but it was well worth it.:)
Thursday we left as soon as I got home from piano lessons.We got in around 10 p.m.Friday morning we got up and went to Silver Dollar City for the the beginning of Young Christians weekend.It was cold and damp and we didn't stay quite as long as we thought we would.However while I was there,I was able to surprise a friend of mine.She works in the kids ride part.That day she was working the balloon ride.I sneaked behind her and scared her.It was great.She knew I was coming down,but she thought it wouldn't be until April.She was going on break just as I showed up.So the timing was perfect.lol!
Saturday morning we woke up to cold weather and lots of rain.Yick.We decided to wait around for a lil bit and wait and see if it lightens up.In the mean time we wandered down to the breakfast room.On the way there I saw a familiar face that made me do a double-take.Yup.Sure enough it was Anthony N. from CYT. I said,"Hey!ANTHONY!" He nearly jumped outta his skin.Ha! HE did a double take as well."Whoa!Hey!" He was there with his youth group for Young Christians weekend at SDC as well. I asked him if his sister,Bri, was around.He said she was probably still in bed.I told him to say hey for me in case I didn't get a chance to. A few minuets later Brianna entered into the breakfast room. I was able to give her a hug and talk to her before heading back to the room. It was a real treat to see CYters in Branson.That is actually the second time to happen to me.:) We ended up not spending any time at SDC cause of how cold it was and none of us had the right clothes for that type of weather.So we went to the IMAX theatre to see College Road Trip and did some shopping.Pretty much killing time before the Haygoods show that night.
The show was amazing as expected.Rae and I was able to talk to all the guys and Cat after the show.Except Tim.But I will catch him later once he is back in the show. ;) I don't wanna say too much,cause I do not want to spoil the fun for those of you who have not yet gone. But after the show was fun! I had fun trying to get good pictures.haha.Cause I wanted my sis and me in all the pictures.First up was Pat, and finally Mike saw us trying to figure a good angle so he took the camera and took the pictured for us.Patrick was trying to tell Mike how to do it and to make sure he was doing it right.It was funny.They are defiantly siblings! hehe! When I talked to Mike I told him how much I loved 'Danny Boy.' and was really glad they put the Irish back in.I told him about the Irish book my piano teacher got for me and how I was working on Wild Rover for recital.Right then and there Mike burst into the chorus of Wild Rover. :)That was priceless. I was also able to ask Matt some bass questions. It was fun talking to all of them. It was a great weekend.I'm sad to be home.*whimper whimper.* Love you all!

"Wait till you get better then pick up 5 string.Once you get that down than you can really dig into it." -Matthew Christian Haygood

Always,
Megan Renee

A Season....My next chapter.Do I have any regrets.

Wow....What a whirl wind week,and the madness continues.

Yesterday I had a meeting for the home-school formal.The girls who are helping me are....ummm...How to put this.Past acquaintances,shall we say.In other words we used to be friends.When they came over the other 4 girls were pilled on my couch while I was perched on my piano bench.We agreed for most of the part but they talked me into setting the formal back till May. So it's like,whatever,but now I have to worry about making sure my entertainment and speaker will be available.*rolleyes* GAG! Now I'm thinking I just want to get it over with.I was excited about banquet,but now.Its going to be one big pain.*sigh* Home-schoolers have a way of doing that to me.

In other light,part of me, hates it. When I had the great volley ball fall out,I still hung around the home-scoolers and took classes, but I felt like the black sheep who nobody liked.That was one reason I joined CYT.I was looking for an outlet with out doing volleyball. The girls had lost my trust and I had lost theirs.It was something stupid that got blown way out of porpotion.That was over 2 years and I'm just starting to re-get in contact with them. Yesterday, when they were piled on the couch giggling and their conversation wandered off to something I didn't get cause I wasn't in the "loop" any more,it slightly hurt. I had to sit and wander if I had regrets about my decisions. If I had kept up with volleyball would I ever have joined CYT?I'm not sure I would of.Cause one thing that drove me to do CYT was I had to get away from the home-schoolers and make new friends.It was too painful to be around them.

In that time I had before I joined CYT my sister and I got so close.We were each others best friends.We had no one else and that was okay.We were always close but we truly became sisters and best friends in those 6 months of being lonely.Also I found something to be passionate about in acting,I found out I was good at stuff I didn't know I was, and I have new friends I would never trade the world for. My parents have friends in the adults of CYT. My parents love being invovled with it as much as I do. My sister had never felt like she fit in anywhere.In CYT she found tons of friends and that she fits in just fine. Mariah,one of the girls said it best."People who don't fit any where else,fit in here." But I still sit and can't help but think life would be like if I had kept my friends here, close to me instead of CYT. I'll never know and a part of me doesn't want to know.

Yesterday when I got to callbacks,Michael was there to help out now that he is graduated from CYT. He asked how my day was and when all I said was,"Rough." He gave me a hug and told me everything would be okay.Other examples,I was not feeling good and very tired. I had several people make sure I was okay. People at CYT truly care about you.

My life has been enriched because of them.I am a better person and closer to God cause of what happened.God has a plan for taking me away from the home school scene.What,I am not sure.Maybe it was to get me to rely on Him, and make me a stronger person.Maybe just to help build my character before I face the world, and wants me to use my theatre experiance for Him, in my life besides CYT.Maybe cause of the people there, and in the end I need to be around them more than the people here in Saint Joe.Maybe there is someone truly special who I would not of met other wise. When my sister left to PA,I had a huge family called CYTers as a support system.They kept me sane.

So I guess,even though I am sorry I lost friendships, as I sit here thinking about waht my life has been like these past 2 years and looking at the photos above,I have no regrets. I wish some things would of turned out different,but I guess no regrets. :-) I don't know what I would do with out these wonderful people in my life.

"A piece of the puzzle,one stepping stone, can only show you a one small part off life's journey."

Always,
Meg Renee